This is based on a true story...
Today I almost quit my job. Frustration had gotten me to the point where I just couldn't see a better way. As I was driving to work I had already in my mind walked through the process. I was gonna walk in my Chairperson's office, begin to tell how much I did not understand why we have so many demands on the music department with so little support outline all of my efforts and show him how much attempts I have made to improve the program, living up to their expectations and end it all with the words..."I QUIT!" Then I heard myself in rehearsal telling one of my students who struggles with their instrument and keeping up not to quit. I thought about how many rehearsals I have had with a hand full of students...but the same students everyday. I thought about my own kids, how I moved here to be a better provider for them and to be a living example of persistence, focus and strength. I thought about all those who told me I couldn't do it I wasn't good enough hair too long credentials not strong..i thought about each of my students who come to me in need of advice, counseling or just a word of encouragement. I thought about how no matter who they are...no one can do my job like me. I thought about all those nights praying for my chance to show my blessings my calling and be the example people needed to see to know that faith and prayer works. and ...the words couldn't come out. I could not imagine ME giving up, walking away just cause it seemed impossible. For a moment I felt like a superhero! I was renewed and optimistic again. I felt like it was my first day on the job. My focus became clearer, now I wanted to try again to re-direct myself and try a different approach. Determined to make this work the way my vision has seen it.
Some time after this day, I received a disturbing notice. My contract would not be renewed. then I thought...well, at least I didn't quit.
